My Best/Futile Attempt @ DESCRIBING in DETAIL & 2 DISTINCT TYPES of MYSTICAL PSYCHEDELIC EXPERIENCES: A Lesson Based On My Own Personal Accounts

I actually pulled these directly out of an email I was writing to a group of people involved with MAPS, as myself, when I realized I couldn't casually expect anybody to read this after involuntarily receiving the email as part of a forum list. As such, I am providing here below, basically, my own unedited and unabridged attempt to convey what two genre of distinctly different experiences that went beyond the normal realm of sensory perception, and yet were not in any way related to a hallucination or a delusion--which I'm also very familiar with. To anybody that wound up here on freak accident, this will sound utterly insane-- to anybody that is familiar with psychedelics but has not had anything like these happen, you will be skeptical, as anyone must until they happen to stumble upon the same thing.....And too the few who totally GET what I'm taking about, particularly in reference to the second one I describe below, youll be relieved that you aren't the only person you'll ever meet who has specifically had the same sort of thing occur to them...... ;) Its only a little long, but its free of pauses for breath, so you may want to add your own, just to digest it a bit.... Take a few seconds every couple sentences, please.  Here goes... (I'd love to read a comment from anybody that really, totally GETS what I'm attempting to describe. Its always nice to hear from others who are relieved at somebody else conveying the same thing they do when they try to tell people about this happening to them....)

NOTE: Both of these, would, of course, by definition, count as Plus-4's on the Shulgin rating scale of psychedelic experience, where 1-3 are essentially intensity descriptions, but plus 4 is not relevant to intensity but denotes the change in the very nature of your experience to be a profoundly, distinctly spiritual one of mystical, foundation-shaking proportions.
 

The first type of psychedelically induced, MYSTICAL experience is the "standard" one which leads to a physical synesthesia where you can taste, see, smell, hear, and feel EVERYTHING, and NOTHING and realize you're a part of all of it, and its a part of you. Not to downplay something that is usually the most important experience in the life of the individual who has it, but the majority of the mystical experiences, from my conversations with a great many psychonauts, are of this type. In other words, where you can BE that which you now know to be true. This is the most common type of harmonius mysical clarity associated with psychedelics.

But, there is another kind as well, that only occurs on the borders of your unrestrained mind, prone to runaway free association thinking, while trying to fall asleep....It occurs suddenly, and can scare the hell out of you and/or instill excitement or both. In my experience it will happen many times the same night if you stop fighting it, when its happening to avoid being woken completely and full up, but whether it happens repeatedly, or just once, it goes like this: As you are drifting off, but not quite unconscious yet, you'll suddenly begin to back out of your near-sleep very quickly, your heart begins racing, your adrenaline gushing, and the reason is the sudden awareness that you're being forced away at the entrance once again. That you are in situ the narrow corridor of your mind that cannot be found purposely, but when its found subconsiously, (and in people I've talked to who GET this feeling, only occurs during the mental state one is in at the tail end of an exhausting intense psychedelic trip...Where you are tired enough to be falling asleep while still mentally being influenced by the direction the experience wants to push you), without the impediment of your conscious self to get in the way....  You awake to find yourself exiting the sort of chaotic mental labyrinth and seemingly disallowing a force inside your own mind, that is able to create a sensation of actively and helplessly being forced into forgetting the entirety of the thinking that led to the great epiphany you had made it RIGHT to the border of. Its literally as if your very mind was built with a trigger that, once you pass a certain point, its IMPOSSIBLE to be there with your fully conscious mind--- and the closer you are to that state, the more you have no choice but to be turned away from whatever secret of the universe itself was to be had by getting in there. And so, what happens, is the moment your last glimmer of consciousness suddenly grasps what you are stumbling into, the very gravity of the experience forces that panic response of adrenaline release, heart rate increase, etc, which serve to bring you closer to complete wakefulness, which in turn cruelly RIPS you from the edge of the epiphany you were just nearing the completion of understanding, in such a way that if fully awakened by it, you cannot remember AT ALL what the fuck you had just been on the verge of becoming aware of or in tune with, and you only know that whether the response was built into you, or from an outside source, the only thing you are SURE of is that, while it may have been for your own good, nevertheless, you were just FORCED out of your own mind and right out of the back exit door of your entire enormously important train of thought, and the building is such the type that you can't seem to even remember how you got in, or what was in the building at all in the first place. You just know, that you had literally no power over the thought loop that was turning your thoughts away from the real prize at the center of everything, and which, if it is focused on purposely, instead disintegrates into nothing precisely proportioned with how quickly you are brought back to complete waking coherence. This generally leaves you with both an excitement of having possibly been on the verge of knowing something literally UNKNOWABLE, a paradoxical, ultimate truth kind of thing.... And yet you are also entirely confused and frustrated--because this experience is ONLY FOR YOU. Its nearly impossible to explain, to comprehend, to describe, or to find another person who doesn't think you're crazy when explaining it. Its one of those mystical goings-on, where, if it hasn't happened to you, basically you can't possibly even understand it, let alone believe it or picture it...

......As these are the two types which I can speak from the heart and from memory about, they are the only two, I understand and as far as that goes, may be the only two types universal to humans. Or there may be others completely, which you can tell me about. If so, and you can clearly elaborate your point, I'd appreciate hearing about it.

Sincerely,
Heedless Blotterfelon (Rhymes with Seedless Watermelon)